Renaissance Soul, by Tatiana – In The Mix #43

May 20, 2010 Tatiana EL-Khouri 0 Comments

The last few months I’ve been like an ostrich with my head buried in the sand. My journey to set my path on course with my passions, has lead me to a bit of tunnel vision. I took a look at my passions and my goals and decided it was time to take action. I did what most people shy away from, going against the rat race and breaking the mold.

I’ve always marched to the beat of my own drum. Always in a state of transition, a state of learning and research. I use to hate describing myself as being “in transition,” being on the way to greatness, on my way to the answers. A few weeks ago I began putting the idea of transition in perspective. My company Creative Force Floral provided floral arrangements for a magazine about singles in Los Angeles. It was a gorgeous event that gathered single professionals and highlighted the beauty and wonder of Southeast Asia. The diversity of the people, their careers, and passions was immense.

While I was there, I ran into a fellow entrepreneur from a women’s business organization I’m a member of. We’ve seen each other a plenty of events in passing, but never did the formal “elevator pitch” conversation. I was in a particularly good mood and delivered my pitch with an air of confidence and determination, as I listed my skill-set and businesses.

She appeared pleasantly taken aback. Proceeding to say that my delivery was so full of conviction and an unapologetic tone that I was refreshing. I was pleased with her reaction but the curiosity in me begged for an elaboration. The woman said many people make excuses for being a jack of all trades or feel the need to be boxed in, but I exuded confidence in my individuality and was a true Renaissance Soul. Instead of defining myself by my job, I’m living my passions.

Well here I am more that 6 months later with two growing businesses, amazing clients and projects, and fantastic friends and family. My tunnel vision led me to everything that I wanted, but I still can’t help wanting more. Not only do I want more, I’m craving more.

I just can’t quite pinpoint what the IT I’m craving is. Which leads me to wonder is the balance between passion, happiness, love, security, or peace every really within full grasp?

Maybe what I’m not seeing is my passions and outlook on life stem from a Renaissance type approach. If I’m constantly in a state of revival and renewed interest, how can I be satisfied with my current state? I will always be pushing to do better, reinventing the process, make waves, and redefining the status quo.